SAN FRANCISCO — Brian Vickers is searching. It shouldn't take long. After all it was four years ago last month when it happened. That's a lot of time to find the words, to describe what it felt like to suffocate, to find life leaving his body, to feel utterly helpless. The NASCAR driver is searching and searching and ...
“You know, when I scuba dive,” Vickers said, “I know the air is right there.”
Vickers raises his right hand and points it skyward, as if the ocean's surface is a few feet away.
“It's right there when I need it (air),” he said.
Vickers lowers his hand, then his head, then his voice. This is as close as he can get to describing how fragile he felt in May 2010.
“I can't put it into words,” he said.
Vickers had a pulmonary embolism in his lungs and a deep vein thrombosis in his legs. He had May-Thurner Syndrome, a rare condition that puts a person at risk for blood clots and a possible stroke. Vickers had blood clots in his legs, lungs and finger. He went through two heart surgeries. He missed 25 races that season.
In 2013 Vickers missed 19 races when a blood clot developed in his right calf. It was a similar situation to 2010. “You evolve as a human being when you go through life experiences,” Vickers said. “Unfortunately it always seems that the bad experiences produce the most personal growth.”
Vickers didn't see this coming anymore than he would predict an earthquake. In 2010 Vickers was 26 and a rising NASCAR star. On the night of his high school graduation he raced in NASCAR's second-tier Busch series. At 20 Vickers became the Busch Series champion, the youngest title holder in any of NASCAR's three divisions.
Ah, but life happens while you are making other plans. Heart surgery, blood thinners, stent insertions, these are things that don't enter the schematic drawn by a rising NASCAR star. And the following sentence is one Vickers never even considered uttering because, well, a young, healthy, in-shape, 26-year-old athlete doesn't feel or act fragile.