He had been taken to the verbal woodshed, that's what Chris Culliver looked like when he sat down to his media table Thursday morning at the Marriott. His face was empty of feeling. His voice was monotone. As the questions came at him like so many bullets at his self-respect, Culliver never blanched, winced or quivered. One got the sense all those emotions had been purged from him by 49ers management in the last 12 hours. He had been laid open.
“I didn't sleep much,” the defensive back said. “I twisted and I turned. It affected me.”
The cornerback was trying to reduce the firestorm he created a day earlier. His anti-gay remarks to a shock jock five days before Super Bowl XLVII resulted in Culliver on Wednesday night being sent to the principal's office, i.e. the hotel room of coach Jim Harbaugh. For over an hour, Culliver said, he was in there with Harbaugh and general manager Trent Baalke. Culliver wouldn't reveal the details of the meeting, although it was apparent the desired result of contriteness was achieved.
“I'm sorry if I offended anyone,” Culliver said. “There were very ugly comments. I should have took time and thought about it (before responding). That's not what I feel in my heart.”
Culliver said that 10 times in the 45 minutes he spoke: He didn't feel it (homophobia) in his heart. It's how he thinks but it's not how he feels. It's in his head, yes, but not in his heart. Putting your mind around all that could give you a headache, like the following three sentences.
“(I was) really just not thinking. (It was) something that I thought. Definitely nothing that I felt in my heart.”
Felt like Yogi Berra was explaining something to me.
Culliver said, “I have homosexual relatives who called me immediately” when they heard of his remarks. He reassured them he is not a homophobe, as he did to his mother, who also phoned him.